Last night was a Friday evening, end of a long week. I’m often starting to feel fatigue Friday evenings after getting up at 3am every day, working a lot of hours, spending a ton of time with the kids, doing all the school drop offs and pickups, daily workouts, etc…
No different than anyone else… a busy schedule is a given (for most people).
Going to the gym was on my agenda but I totally I did not “feel like” going. On top of that i was feeling a bit run down… sore throat and kind of a general fatigue. Nothing major but enough to notice it.
Suddenly I had a full blown conversation going on in my head as to why I should skip the gym and get some extra rest…
“I had done a great job working hard all week and i could use some extra down time….” Essentially rationalizing my way into a skipped gym session.
But something interesting happened
I literally separated myself (or my inner identity) from that conversation.
While a huge part of me was still hell bent on staying home, I also had this sensation of just “observing” that inner conversation (more like a thought pattern). I continued to simply “observe” as I packed my gym bag, put my shoes on and drove to the gym.
It was completely different than the feeling of forcing yourself to do something. I wasn’t yelling at myself in the mirror saying “Justin, you can do this”. Not at all.
I simply let that excuse-making tape play, run its course while another part of me… the part in control of my physical movement, followed through on the steps that I knew at a gut level I wanted to be taking.
Once I got to the gym, I had to go through the process again. I started with a warmup on the stationary bike and even the low level settings felt like a chore.
Those old weak-minded mental tapes started playing again saying how heavy my legs felt and how it was going to be impossible to get through a leg workout.
Once I again. I simply observed while my “main controller” kept the physical body going.
Once I completed my warm up I quickly went straight to the leg press and heavy weights that were planned for my workout. From there it was smooth sailing. I was energized, excited about my workout and ended up doing one of the most thorough, exhausting (in a good way) workouts I’ve had in weeks.
Oh yeah and that sore throat and run down feeling that I was stressing about earlier…. totally gone. I felt 100% healthy. Woke up this morning. Same deal, felt great. Almost like my gym decision to USE my body instead of rest it allowed me to will myself to get back to 100% energy and health.
My Take Aways From This Experience:
I kind of look at mind as:
2 internal voices
2 separate elements
I can hear and experience both conversations at the same time.
The more you examine and study them, the more control you have over them to enable your physical body to follow through on the decisions that are most inline with your innermost aspirations.
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